My first favourite song by Cage the Elephant (which ultimately got me into them) was Always Something. Its chorus goes: “it’s always something, before the late night, around the corner, there’s always something waiting for you, can’t hold the hands back, can’t make the sun rise, it’s always something, you know it’s always something”. I listened to it recently and discovered I interpret it very differently now.
A few years back, a very good friend of mine told me I should change my negative attitude, because this is what invites misery into my life. I obviously didn’t like it: can’t be bothered actually checking, but I’m pretty sure I wrote some annoyed journal entry about it. Now, from perspective, I nod understandably, thinking “damn it, he was so right!”. Because now that I’m out of it, I can see I indeed was negative (especially about myself) and I was willingly and actively (though of course not consciously!) inviting negativity into my life. It was always in a form of an innocent joke about my eternal bad luck. Anything undesirable ever happening, anything negative, was always to do with my bad luck. I was doomed.
Only it wasn’t a bad luck that doomed me: I doomed myself.
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